Thanksgiving has always been a rather low-key Holiday for me; filled with catch phrase, green bean casserole, and walks with my Cousins, Aunts, and Great-Aunts down and around the neighborhood, rain or snow or shine. My Dad goes hunting to (hopefully) put some venison in the freezer and my Brother is usually in a field for fall harvest or hunting, so it’s Mom and I. We usually carpool with one or more of my Aunts and Grandparents to an extended family member’s home. Then, depending on the weather and our mood, mom and I either go to a movie later on, stop at a few stores, or hang out at home and put up the Christmas tree and eat fudge. It’s simple and quite underwhelming. This year, however, was a bit unorthodox for me as I headed east for the Grateful Holiday. And when I say east, I don’t mean, like, Eau Claire or eastern WI, I mean the east coast. Yes, Connecticut/New York. I had more than one item on my to-do list for the Holiday weekend, so among packing up Mara’s short term home in CT, doing a little paperwork for my side job, and attempting to kick a post-strep-throat chest and sinus cold in the shorts, we ambitiously made our way into NYC at 5:00am for the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade on Thanksgiving morning! Join me as I describe in fair detail the chronological series of events that lead us through the fence-lined city blocks at the dawn of Thanksgiving with 3.5 million friends.

  • 3:30am – The obnoxious and inevitably dreadful alarm. Boil water to make hot apple cider and salted caramel hot cocoa, pack enough fruit snacks to feed a kindergarten classroom (twice), along with 3 blankets, into my 45L day-pack as if we are headed into the snowy trenches of the forest for 3 days.
  • 4:20am – Drive 1 1/2 hour to an NYC parking garage we got online for $20 – we park in NYC for $20. 20. for all day.
  • 5:45am – Walk to Columbus Circle where we plan to sit, until we learn you have to be a VIP, meaning you have to have NYPD in your blood or be a Macy’s employee to be even considered to pass through the disconnected, heavily guarded, temporary fences surrounding the garden of bleachers and beautiful, wide-open spaces of sidewalk.
  • 6:20am – Find ourselves a spot to sit on the corner of 59th Street and 6th Ave, behind a lovely family who got bananas and coffee from a pharmacy on the corner to (try to) stay alive and warm.
  • 6:45am – Attempt watching Chicago on Netflix while drinking hot apple cider and NOT having to pee.
  • 8:10am – I have to pee… preface: NYC has a very low restroom to store ratio, maybe like, 1:20. I eventually find a cafe, sneak past the busy counter, around a corner and down it’s narrow-stairway into the basement, use the facilities, and sneak out without purchasing anything or even making remote eye-contact with another human.
  • 8:36am – I am STUCK on the sidewalk touching what feels like 16 different people who are pushing and getting sassy because, for some reason, they need to get around the corner before the 24 people in front of them need to get around the corner. This was a traumatic 8 minutes for a 22-year old girl from a town with a population that could fit in one city block of NYC.
  • 8:44am – Return to my seat where I recover from my mild-anxiety attack as we became friends with some nice folks standing behind us from Rosemount, MN watching their kids play in their high school band.
  • 9:30-11:30am – freak out at every passing float (Jimmy Fallon, Dustin Lynch, Lauren Alaina, Santa, 6+ high school bands, dancers, men in fairy costumes and 60 pairs of people in uniform holding down a giant pillsbury dough boy, brave souls dressed in bread, eggs, and a stick of butter, a human Christmas tree singing carols, and the Ice age squirrel chasing an acorn – just to name a few)
In blissful conclusion, go to the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade if you can in your lifetime. It’s mad chaos, it’s 100% New York, and you’ll have to fight to empty your bladder, but it’s magical when, on your right you can see down 10 city blocks at millions of people watching the Grinch and Elf on the Shelf float by, and on your left, you hear the screams of, what seems like the whole world, for Santa Claus as he rounds the corner atop his sleigh standing 15 feet above the crowd. It’s breathtaking and exhilarating all at once to see kids and their parents alike, be 10x more excited to see Santa and his reindeer pass by than Jimmy Fallon. So, go. By a plane ticket, charge your phone, pack a good book for the wait, and join 3.5 million people at the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade.

A handful of thankfuls from my 2017: blankets, shared recipes, new car smell, Chip & Joanna’s new Target line Hearth & Hand, the truth, Powell’s book store & a really good paperback book, #TGIT (Olivia Pope, Meredith Grey, Annalise Keating), hugs, a good bra, solo traveling, wit, waking up from a nap slumber, thoughts that really make you think, puns, tiny humans, someone who gets my jokes, Amazon Prime, polaroid photos, a good playlist, pontoon rides, last minute walks, snail mail, a successful surprise, a side of dinner with good conversation, scent booster laundry beads, work friends.



So, do it. decide.

Is this the life

You want to live?

Is this the person

you want to love?

Is this the best you can be?

Can you be stronger?

Kinder? More compassionate?


Breathe in.

Breathe out.


[meredith grey – grey’s anatomy]


because our human brains were designed with zero capacity to know what the future holds, we waste a crazy amount of time weighing options and making choices. i get it… to a certain degree – do your research, analyze the pros and cons, the physical, mental, and emotional impact the decision will make on you and those around you. growing up our parents prayed we would always do this and “make good choices.” but at what point do we stop thinking that we are in control? god granted us free will to make decisions, but at the end of the day, all we can do is decide and trust that it is what god wants it to be for us. we get so caught up thinking that situations happen to us when it’s really that things happen to build something in us. so, decide. educate yourself of the options, then decide. there is no way of knowing that what you decided was the best option but the fun is that if it’s not, you get another chance. you always get another chance when you’re living for your creator and not yourself. so, if you’ve been waiting for that “sign” before making a big (or small) decision – this is it. decide and don’t do it for anyone but yourself.


if you’re happy & you know it

if you’re happy & you know it


happy first day of spring!

i have to admit, i was more excited for daylight savings on march 12th than my birthday on the 15th. and today is the first day of spring – i am a happy human. spring isn’t usually people’s favorite season – things are brown, it’s rainy and still pretty chilly out. typically seasons like summer and fall – when it’s warm and colorful – are more popular. the reason spring is my favie season is because “dead” things come to life – like jesus after easter!

fun fact: the word “lent” means spring – and if you didn’t know, we are in the midst of lent. 27 days until easter and jesus is resurrected as he promised!

spring means trees begin to bear leaves and fruit and green grass start to push through last year’s dead grass.

you start to see people out walking their dogs, going to the park, and driving with their windows down. bears come out of hibernation and so do humans.

the coke stand opens, people mow their lawns, dusk is at 7pm or later, you put away jeans, sweats, and sweatshirts and you break out the shorts and tees.

boats and rv’s come out of winter storage, birds come back from the south, the land gets tilled, no more sandy dirty roads from winter plows and waiting for vacations to the warm tropics.

baseball starts, softball starts, golf courses open, sunroofs open, ice and snow melts, dog poop somehow appears all over the yard, families do spring cleaning, houses get redecorated, and the dead leaves get swept off the porch.

my mom always told me that spring doesn’t officially

start until you see the first robin of the year.

what traditions do you have related to spring?

spring means the gardens get planted, the beach bags come out, sidewalk chalk trumps any other outdoor activity, mason jar bug collections appear, and the picnic basket gets filled.

there’s more laughing, bigger smiles, exposed skin, and happy hearts.

there are more pictures taken, invites offered, sandals bought, dog kisses, and sprinkler parties.


now you’re thinking, “yeah yeah katie, you just babbled about spring but what was the benefit of reading this until the end?” well, if you didn’t already know, the most important thing about today being the first day of spring is that dairy queen treats it as a holiday!

go get a free ice cream cone and celebrate spring!


A: anxiety. where all my anxious people at? whether you’re just discovering this sometimes smothering feeling, are on meds, or it has been/is taking over parts of your life – you’re not alone. as a matter of fact, over 18% of the us population has anxiety. anxiety is something that can easy have power over you in all areas in your life. i know it did in mine until it started affecting my relationships with people – then i decided i needed to regulate myself. i had increased temper and irritability, i was extremely moody, i needed things to go my way, and i had ocd tendencies. sounds fun, right? not so much. it’s been nearly 2 years since i started taking medication and my anxiety no longer has power over me! it’s not a scary thing, it’s not embarrassing or belittling, it’s part of who we are. living in a world with high expectations, it’s no wonder anxiety is on the rise. don’t let it have power over you – squish it like a bug, you’ll thank your past self one day.

B: behold: [v.] to see or observe a thing or person, especially a remarkable or impressive one. to fix the eyes upon. all powerful and true. behold is a word that rings in the very deep part of my heart. each time i say it or hear it, it’s like hearing the wind of the holy spirit – it’s soft and mildly piercing, inviting and delicate but brave with utmost authority. next time you hear the word, digest it.

C: care. in one of my college classes our class was asked to list the 3 most important characteristics of a teacher. naturally, we came up with things like: responsible, kind, invested, knowledgeable, patient, respectful, differentiated, enthusiastic, caring, advocating, etc. we wrote them all on the board and decided as a class to narrow it down to the top 3. after that, our teacher became quite sincere and told us that the most important part about being a teacher is to care. kids learn better when they know they are cared about. when people care, good things multiply. caring is also an umbrella term – every important characteristic of teachers falls under caring. good parents care, good friends care, and it’s no different for teachers. think about your favorite teacher growing up – you probably don’t remember anything they taught you academically but you remember conversations after class, sharing good news with them, reaching out to them for advice, and caring about you. just care, friends.

D: death. are you scared to die? while talking with a friend lately, we talked about not being afraid to die because we know where we are going is without a doubt better than anything we can ever imagine – tenfold. but what is a perplexing and rather scary thought is that where we are going after death is forever. FOREVER. F O R E V E R… we are not capable of understanding forever and because its so massive and beyond our human comprehension, it scares the living daylights out of us. i’m christian and i believe in heaven and that i am saved by grace, but i’m not here to talk about life after death because it’s literally unknown to us. this is merely food for thought – death is a tough concept. what are your thoughts?

E: equality vs. equity. equality is everyone getting the same thing no matter what – just what we all want. “it’s not fair!” we hear AND say all too often. equity though, is when each individual gets what he or she needs to be successful. THIS is special education at its core!

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F: forgive but don’t forget. forgive and forget, right? not so much. always always always forgive. it doesn’t mean the other person wins, it means you win because you free yourself from their power over you. forgiveness, like knowledge, is a weapon people often look over. god forgives us unconditionally, so why do we think we have the right to not forgive others? on the flip side, forgiveness frees our hearts but it doesn’t mean we have to forget. when others hurt us, we don’t ever have to forget what happened. experience shapes who we are and forgiveness allows us to remain ourselves. don’t forget but always forgive.

G: goals. so i want to do everything. the other day in class after watching an astronaut news segment on cnn, my teacher asked our students if they would ever go to outer space. a lot of them said no because of how astronauts have to live in space, i immediately said “i do!” that seems to be a trend in my life, i want to do all things all the time. i want to go to grad school, i want to become a certified skydiver, i want to go to every state, heck – every country! i want to do everything – i have so many goals. yes, prioritized goals, but as long as i keep learning and growing, i can stride toward my goals. and so can you.

H: he who is without sin can cast the first stone. a sin is a sin, there is no scale that tells which sins are worse than others – god doesn’t rate our actions. if you would like to stone a prostitute to death, or a thief or murderer, don’t forget to consider your own sins before throwing anything… are you THAT much better than that rapist or murderer that you have the right to judge and therefore stone another person for their actions? moral of the parable: judgment is not our job.

I: “if you could have any super power?” the classic ice-breaker question. “i want to fly, be invisible, be super strong, read people’s minds or see through things” are usually the answers you hear. not me though – i want to be able to communicate in every single way with every single person in the world. i want to know sign language, chinese, arabic and every language in between. lip reading, body language, and off-the-grid language, slang, accents, braille, and eye-gaze. how cool would it be to, without any effort, walk up to someone and have no communication barriers – to be able to interpret accurately and understand fully. would there be more peace in the world? there’d be no miscommunication. i could go anywhere and create relationships with an infinite number people. imagine walking around new york city, being able to greet each person you walk past in their primary way of communication. i want that super power.

J: jo. jo is my middle name. as i wrote this, i learned that it means: to add, god is gracious, to enlarge – all pointing at the growth in family. i’m quite obsessed with my middle name, i share it with a cousin, aunt, and some friends. i love that it is simple and only 2 letters. in a bigger picture, i love knowing other people’s middle names. anytime i do ice breakers with new friends or am getting to know someone, i ask what their middle name is and where it comes from. also – the movie safe haven with julianne hough [my all time favorite celebrity] is super exciting because julianne’s fake name is katie and the ghost that is with her’s name is jo. obviously i’m obsessed.

K: knowledge is power. as cliché as it is, it’s true. [there’s a reason things are cliché] learning is the best weapon anyone could ever have. being educated about things you’re passionate about is something no one can take away form you. as a first generation college student in my family, i have thousands of dollars in debt, but what’s inside my brain is absolutely priceless and the single biggest tool i will have as an educator and person. be a life-long learner, immerse yourself into experiences that will build a foundation for meaningful conversation in the future.

L: love languages. words of affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, acts of service, and physical touch. if you haven’t heard of these 5 love languages and learned which are yours, i encourage you to – you’ll learn a lot about yourself. things start making sense when you figure out how to be loved. explore your love languages!

M: mother nature. holy cats… some of my all time favorite things are in nature. i love leafless trees in the middle of winter on a clear blue-sky day. i love seeing a bird perched at the top of those trees. i love the smell of fresh cut grass and listening to a stream rush, squirrels rustle in leaves, and watching trees breathe. something that makes me stare into space in complete puzzlement is knowing that every plant and beast, earth, wind, and fire – every creation was made to worship their creator. every gust of wind, every bird’s song, every annoying cricket, buzzing bee, and drop of water is literally worshipping it’s creator by simply being what it was created to be. P.S. [E A R T H  D A Y] is saturday, april 22 and [A R B O R  D A Y] is friday, april 28. celebrate our planet all week!!!

N: no. surprise! yet another teaching inspired concept… negative feedback gets ingrained in our minds. when i’m lifeguarding – “no running!” at school – “no talking,” “don’t do that,” “stop.” these are all ways to put an end to something but we leave kids/students not knowing what it is we want them to be doing. so when i’m lifeguarding – “walk!” at school – “please be quiet,” “i’d rather you do ____,” and “at school we ____.” it’s psychological – without even knowing we are programming people’s minds around us and reinforcing behavior with our responses. it’s a way of thinking – a mindset. if you’re looking to be more positive, try eliminating negative response habits and replace them with responses that are less of a blow to people. happy yes-ing!

O: olive green. my favorite color next to brown! yes, brown is my favorite. If you’re scrunching your eyebrows, it’s fine I get it a lot. it’s such a natural color – soil, trees, wood, and a very common color for houses inside and out might I add! and olive green – forget about it. i know it’s trending right now but seriously it’s the best. get outside of your comfort zone – love colors you never thought you would!

P: photo booths. photo booths are my thang – i love the whole experience: from spotting a photo booth in a mall, to scrapping up dollar bills, cramming 2+ people in the tiny little booth, selecting a border, and remembering to look at the camera and not the screen. the best part? deciding what combination of faces to make to express the emotion shared between myself and who i’m with to capture the mood of our day. then after a stressful 12 seconds of being unrealistically photogenic and laughing at how silly a photo booth is, you channel your inner 5 year old self and stare at the drop box waiting for the photo strips to print. and when they do – you stare, point and laugh. photo booths are more than $5 pictures, it’s more than a selfie, it’s an experience. i challenge you to photo-booth [verb] the next time you see one. share the moment and keep the memory. i wish i invented photo booths – absolutely brilliant.

Q: quality vs. quantity. over time, i think we all learn that the quality of things is much more important than the quantity, to a degree… my father has always been an advocate for paying more for quality things so they last longer, they’re more reliable, etc. therefore, he’s not a fan of the family dollar. on the other hand, my mother is the queen of bargain shopping and getting the biggest bang for your buck. for example, she buys the pizzas we like whenever they’re on sale so we have about 16 pizzas on hand at all times [rockstar mom???]. i’d like to think i’m a mix of both, which would make sense because i’m their biological offspring. but – what about quality vs. quantity outside of material things? quality wins every time. 3 deep relationships will always beat 10 shallow ones. spending 2 hours of quality time with someone is worth much more than 6 hours of interrupted and surface time. quality, quality, quality [unless it’s pizza].

R: real talk [rt]. real talk is so important – don’t fear what people will think about the way you feel or your opinions, they are not you. it’s always bothered me when people say “it’s not a big deal.” um, hello… a kindergartener who lost a mitten is a big deal. a friend who is going to be late for curfew is a big deal. a broken pencil – big deal. a lost letter – big deal to a specific individual who values different things than you do. no one has a right to judge what is important in your life. a big deal to someone else may not even matter to us; but that doesn’t mean it’s any less important in the grand scheme of things. with the lack of face-to-face interaction these days, real talk in person is so critical to relationships. have valuable conversations with new people, learn something, dig deeper than the surface, and steer away form prejudging other people. having real talk with people builds trust, character, and strong relationships. surprise people by being patient, slow to anger, non-judgmental, willing, and constant – they will be surprised.

S: stories. there is something i love about listening to a story – how someone got their name, a good memory of a trip, or a war experience – the tone of someone’s voice and the way they use their hands to tell a story shows passion and purpose in what they are speaking. think about campfire stories, happy endings, and your imagination – stories are critical to growth and learning, not to mention happiness and fun. people relate through stories… a child can tell a story to a ninety year old friend and make a connection  – they may encourage others to tell their stories too!

T: timeless. time seems to have control over quite a bit in our lives and we forget about the things that are timeless… like handwritten letters, the smell of an old book, photographs [the ones you can hold on to], advice from grandma and grandpa, scrabble, calling someone on their birthday, giving back to your community, and bald eagles. A bit of advice [that I also need to be advised of], make time for what’s timeless.

U: universe. like the topic of death and forever [see letter d], the vastness of our universe absolutely blows. my. mind. like, you are one person, in one house, in one town, in one state, in one country, on one planet that belongs to one solar system within one galaxy and there are infinite galaxies. what. how small do you feel? as of late [the past few years] something i crave is to feel small in the bigness of god’s universe. i’m not going to sit here and say your problems “aren’t a big deal,” but next time something is bothering you, think about how big of a universe you live in. a universe that always existed and always will – like god: was, is, and always will be, the alpha and omega, the first and last, the beginning and end. isn’t it cool to think humans have only reached earth’s moon? wow. there is so much more to our universe and god is in every single cell.

V: violin. there’s nearly nothing else as simple as a violin that makes me instantly happy. when i see a live band and there is a violin, it’s like the world stops for a moment [or until it’s done playing]. something about a tiny string crossing a few others – like a tiny child teaching a few adults how to love in a very discouraging world – it makes a beautiful, nearly unbelievable sound. it’s soft and serene but intense and strong. in my opinion, it makes or breaks a band. and don’t even get me started on violin solos – forget about it, absolutely stunning. hands down my favorite instrument and the one i wish i could play, because hot damn.

W: who, what, when, where. who does god want me to interact with? what conversations does he want me to engage in? when does god want me to initiate? where does god want me? — these questions are ones that immediately stood out to me when I heard them from a friend in college. simple, basic questions that can literally guide your faith journey. write these down somewhere and put them in places you will see multiple times a day and see what happens.

X: xo. first off, why is xo, xo? well, in the middle ages, x meant something to be true which was encouraged by the cross of christ – “in christ’s name, it’s true, i assert.” then people would start to kiss the x in the same way they’d kiss a bible – essentially “sealing it with a kiss” thus, x signified kisses! as for o, who knows. xo is such a fun way to sign off a letter or some sort of message. subtle but meaningful. – xoxo katie

Y: you weren’t born to just pay bills & die. my dad always says “work to live, don’t live to work.” i know i know, i’m young and naive to money, but don’t wake up each day with the sole purpose to work – work to get a paycheck to pay bills to maintain your life to go back to work the next day to do it all over again. work to live – work to make that paycheck so you can do things that make you happy because paying bills makes no one happy. let your work be a part of your life rather than letting your life just be part of your work. we aren’t here to just pay bills and die – go explore, spend too much money doing something exhilarating, clock out on friday and get out of town for the weekend, go do happy. bills and grocery shopping aren’t going anywhere, and either are you if you think they hold priority over your happiness.

Z: zebra sweater. a good friend got her eyes on this silly zebra sweater when we were shopping one day. i didn’t like it – i thought it was silly and every time she wore it, i would just shake my head and smile. but the more i looked at that sweater, the more i understood why she loved it so much and how important it was that she didn’t let my opinion have power over hers. she loves that zebra sweater, and even though i think it’s silly, i love that she loves it. i love when she wears it because she feels fun and happy in it. if you ever find yourself eyeing up a zebra sweater [metaphor], don’t let anyone’s opinion decide whether you want to invest in it or not. too often we pass up opportunities to make us happy because of someone else’s opinion. so when you find a zebra sweater, buy it. love it. and wear it because it makes YOU happy.



become a happy hiker

hiking/backpacking is something i’ve taken up in the last couple years. my friend estelle and i have traveled to california, north dakota, and various local places to explore our adventurous side. there’s something about packing limited supplies in a backpack that’s nearly half your size to trek through hot days and set up camp for cold nights. it’s exhilarating. BUT, it doesn’t have to be a week long hiking trip without a shower, eating nothing but dry, lightweight meals over a fire… i love day trips to state parks where i can wear a small pack and think about nothing but the birds chirping and the stream rushing. have you ever had the urge to backpack atop a mountain or hike through the local state park that you drive by every day on your way to work? now is your time! i’m going to share some tips that i wish i’d have known before going on a day/week trip, share some helpful websites full of hiking/backpacking information, and hear from  people who are seasoned and early in their hiking/backpacking career!

happy hiker helpfuls:
take a compact saw, you never know when you’ll have to cut an old log apart for your fire.
make your own fire starters. here’s how i make mine with supplies i already have [and usually throw away]: dryer lint, empty toilet paper rolls, candle wax. clump a dryer lint ball up and dip half of it in candle wax, then stick it inside a toilet paper roll! voila – you have yourself some fire starters that you don’t have to carry out!
bug spray. bugs are #1, #2, and #3 on my most disliked things in the world. i will never go into the forest without bug spray! if you have any tips on DIY bug repellant that works, PLEASE let me know! How to Choose Bug Repellant
– blister protection whether it’s New Skin, Blister tape, or extra duct tape estelle says, “blisters can ruin the trip.” Blister Protection Tips
some way to filter water. bringing enough water for an entire trip is too heavy and just silly. find a way to filter stream water and check with the park to see if there are dispersed wells. Water Treatment Expert Advice
sleeping bagquality vs. quantity. even if it’s 40+ degrees at night, i wold recommend at least a 0-15 degree sleeping bag. It may be a bit more bulky than a 15-40 degree bag but trust me, it’s worth being warm at night! How to Choose a Sleeping Bag
bring a dog.
be prepared for rain.

Q & A:
[disclaimer: i am not an expert and the information i have is from experience, online, or advice from others.]

Q: how important is it to have hiking shoes? Would regular tennis shoes work?
A: i will always prefer hiking shoes. they have more structure and ankle support for the terrain. tennis shoes are absolutely okay but if you’re serious about hiking, i would recommend hiking shoes. visit REI for help choosing hiking boots!

Q: what foods and cooking gear should I bring?
A: i have some tin bowl/cups that i use over the fire, i always bring a small stove with bleuet fuel cubes in case it rains or i don’t make a fire. one set of reusable utensils, a couple silicone collapsable bowls and a a small cast-iron skillet! as far as food goes, i don’t want to buy freeze-dried food for every meal (boring & expensive) so i bring baggies of potato flakes, oatmeal, granola, noodles, canned mushrooms, baked beans, etc.

Q: how do you find out if you can have a fire where you are hiking/backpacking? (who can tell you the rules about fire in parks/campgrounds?)
A: before going, always check out the park website – they’ll have all park rules and regulations, trail maps, facilities, etc. if you have any other questions, always call the park office/ranger to see what the fire danger is (high, medium, low) and it varies by day so be sure to call right before leaving not week(s) in advance.

what is your favorite part about hiking/backpacking/camping:
“the view, the sound or lack of sound, less humans more trees, campfire food.”
“getting away from normal routine and spending time outside.”
“personal reflection, trees, using fun gear”

find dozens of “how to choose” articles, checklists, and advice articles here at REI!

Sierra Trading Post – a discounted website for us outdoor lovers.
(it’s a branch of TJmaxx, Marshalls, and HomeGoods so obviously it’s the best.)

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100 things that make me happy

100 things that make me happy:

  1. New socks
  2. A freshly washed chalk board
  3. A new page of stickers
  4. Glasses (the ones you put on your face)
  5. Waffle cones
  6. Kevin Costner
  7. A crowd cheering after the national anthem
  8. Hammocks
  9. A down comforter
  10. Jeep Wrangler Unlimiteds
  11. Carhartt
  12. An extra cheesy quesadilla with sour cream
  13. Snow days
  14. Planting flowers
  15. Boarding a plane
  16. Arriving at a destination
  17. My planner
  18. Blake Lively
  19. Simon called Peter
  20. A new year calendar
  21. Pearl sprinkles
  22. Tan lines
  23. Taco bell
  24. Remembering dreams
  25. Beef stroganoff
  26. Bald eagles
  27. A classroom lit by lamps
  28. Pilly fabric
  29. The sound of a tree cracking
  30. Someone’s contagious belly laugh
  31. Hot chocolate
  32. Brushing my teeth after drinking hot chocolate
  33. Thinking about the vastness of our universe
  34. Greeting someone at an airport
  35. Breadsticks
  36. A new pack of crayons
  37. A new pack of pens
  38. A new pack of markers
  39. Crayola [obviously]
  40. Coniferous trees
  41. Fresh cut fingernails
  42. Adidas
  43. Fireplaces
  44. Making s’mores in bulk
  45. Playing in the yard
  46. When there aren’t mosquitos
  47. Camp fire sing-alongs
  48. Without mosquitos
  49. Julianne Hough
  50. Vacuuming
  51. Coloring with children
  52. Making new friends
  53. Bombpops
  54. Tenting
  55. Playing catch
  56. Praise & Worship
  57. Grooming eyebrows
  58. Dr. Pepper
  59. Tubing (snow & water)
  60. Euchre
  61. Caramel Frappes
  62. Taking risks
  63. Sleeping like a rock
  64. The shack
  65. The smell of fresh laundry
  66. Being warm
  67. Planning adventures
  68. Planning anything
  69. Love languages
  70. A worn in t-shirt
  71. TJMaxx
  72. Old Navy
  73. Carbs
  74. People with disabilities
  75. Fishing
  76. Spotting a shooting star
  77. Puppies. Plural.
  78. Holding a newborn baby for hours
  79. Watches
  80. Jumping in a lake for the first time of the summer.
  81. Cuddling
  82. Bare trees against a clear sky
  83. Seeing a bird perched at the top of a tree without leaves.
  84. Slip ‘n’ slides
  85. Painting
  86. High school musicals
  87. Good humor
  88. Seahorses
  89. Good texters
  90. Catching up with old friend
  91. Stripes
  92. 2000’s country
  93. Lauren Daigle
  94. Seeing the waiter with my food
  95. My blankie
  96. Staying at a hotel
  97. Saucy fingers while eating chicken wings
  98. Looking at engagement pictures
  99. The detective emoji
  100. Having 100 things that make me happy.

there is something special about understanding that happiness is a choice – to know that if you aren’t happy, something needs to change.

god is a verb

god is a verb, not a noun. // buckminster fuller

growing up as a [catholic] christian i’ve always learned that god was a man with a white beard and robe who lived in the clouds, that i was closer to him while inside the church and that his fists held power that i’d never comprehend. in other words, i grew up learning and thinking of god as a noun – a person, a thing that had a place in space.

do i really want to spend my life praying to a static god?

god is a verb, a variable that is able to adapt and change to  billions of very specific circumstances simultaneously. god is movement, god is dancing, god is embrace, god flows through us like the holy spirit encourages the wind to travel. i want to spend my life worshipping this god – the god that is within us rather than above us. he humbled himself to become 100% man while being 100% god so we could see him as a verb, not a noun.

still not convinced of this whole verb thing? consider a forest and all that makes up it’s brilliance – moose, deer, fox, and squirrels, down to the sprouting grass and inch worms, every leaf, rock and speck of soil. all of these things not only worship god with their vibrant colors, beastly strength, persevering growth, and all around majestic beauty, but god is the leaves dancing, the beasts breathing, the mothers nursing their young, the rocks breaking the water’s current, the seeds growing and flowers blooming. god is green and indigo and yellow and every shade of blue, god is comfort and stability in the eye of a storm, he is embracing the life of his smallest handiwork that only he knows exists. speaking of pronouns [not to be confused with god being a noun] – god is he, she, we, and us. god is everyone and everything. god is being and doing in every aspect of your life – god is existence, god is endurance. now doesn’t this sound like the kind of god you want to invite into your life?

god is your laugh, my tears, our every breath. god forgives my mistakes, encourages you to change, celebrates our victories.

if love is a verb and god is love, then god is a verb.


hello, 2017!

day 1 of 2016 – new year new me.

day 365 of 2016 – well, that didn’t go as planned.

most of us think that january 1st is the only day in 2017 that we can start fresh, take on some crazy new year resolutions, or turn over a new leaf. although that is absolutely 100% false, i’ve fallen right onto that bandwagon and i’m not mad about it. i’m going into 2017 guns’a blazin’ ready to kick everyday in the butt. don’t get me wrong, 2016 taught me a lot about myself and i grew more than i ever thought possible. but i have some big expectations for 2017 and even though it’s cliche and dopey, i have some new year resolutions and i want to share them a) because if the world knows then i feel obligated to follow through b) so i don’t actually forget c) hopefully drag a couple sorry butts along with me!

#1 – blog. as you can see, i’m doing this new thing called blogging but to be honest, i have no idea what i’m doing. i’ve always loved writing and i’m pretty good at it but through college, doing things for sheer joy slowly vanished because school took priority over everything else. now that i’m nearing the end of my college journey, and it being a brand new year, what better way to start writing again than to blog? my intention for god winks is to post about what god and i want and to post when god and i want. there won’t be a weekly blog post and it won’t always be about a certain topic – 2016 invited me to be free in time and live moment to moment — so here’s my blog and here i am!

#2 – invest with intention. id rather have three deep relationships than ninety shallow relationships. cliche, right? maybe. this is the way i’ve always lived my life and it’s about to get amped up – i enjoy getting to know people as a whole, the weaknesses behind the strength, the humility behind the humbleness, and the imperfections within the beauty. i want to sit down with someone for coffee and trace the outline of their eyes with mine and empathize with every word rolling off of their tongue. i want to scroll through my contacts and call people i haven’t talked to in months just to see how they are and wish them a good day. i want to send more snail mail. i don’t want to make plans, i want to do plans. i want to appreciate people for who they were created to be rather than who the world would like them to be. i don’t want to be remembered as a flake, but a reliable friend with intention. 

#3 – save pennies. i. am. poor. i live with my parents. i drive a ’99 malibu. i’m worth -$30 trillion dollars to the government. but i’m saving pennies! to hold myself accountable, i created 3 mason jars and decorated them all cute-like to motivate my saving habits. one jar for $5 bills, one titled “adventure fund” and the last for change. i’m really looking forward to seeing how much i’m capable of saving since i just don’t have a saving gene in my body. 

#4 – be less naive about the world. instead of dreaming about traveling the world all day long and thinking adventure only lies outside the US border, i want to reach every corner of the US and be educated – learn about state/national parks/forests, the history of rural towns, and find as many hidden gems as possible in this 3.8 million square mile country.

#5 – read, read, read. as a teacher, i understand first-hand how important it is to read for pleasure, but rarely do i take the time to do so myself. as 2016 came to a close, i closed a book that inspired me to dive into hundreds of pages in 2017. i prefer paperback chronicles with pages to fold and mark up. i love licking my finger to turn each page and bend the spine to familiarize the book to being open to it’s reader. 

As the NEA and kindergarteners across America say:

I promise to read
Each day and each night.
I know it’s the key
To growing up right.

I’ll read to myself,
I’ll read to a crowd.
It makes no difference
If silent or loud.

I’ll read at my desk,
At home and at school,
On my bean bag or bed,
By the fire or pool.

Each book that I read
Puts smarts in my head,
‘Cause brains grow more thoughts
The more they are fed.

So I take this oath
To make reading my way
Of feeding my brain
What it needs every day.

#6 – teacher [verb]. i will graduate in may with a special education degree(s) and i couldn’t be more excited to have my own classroom in august. this year i want to start collecting books to make my classroom library – if you have any suggestions on where to find cheap, like-new books for all ages, please let me know! teacher-ing also means creating a school-appropriate wardrobe, spending hours on teachers pay teachers, and making a stellar laundry list of fun resources and lesson plan ideas.

#7 – be loved. so often we think we are inadequate to be loved – by others and by god. have you ever loved someone so wholly that you don’t even care if they love you back? you just like giving them what they deserve – to be loved. well, as a matter of fact, people love you like that as well. and as a matterer of facter, god loves you like that. 

there’s never been a moment i was not held inside your arms

there’s never been a day when you were not who you say you are

you’re forever, it don’t matter what i’m walking through

no matter where i’m goin’ there’s never been a moment i was not loved by you

 – never been a moment // micah tyler

 so love people wholly

let people love you

and most importantly, let god love you.

hello, 2017!